Although I have left my relationship last year November (2008), one would think that after over a year of single life that things become easier and if not, at least that they are at least getting easier.
“BIG SIGH”
IF only they had… what a dissapointment…
Yes of course, I have my good and bad days and yes, of course, I have more ‘good’ days, but the last two days have been all else BUT‘good’ days.
Maybe it has to do with listening to the words of ‘old’ songs whilst driving? Is it the festive season? Cold, cozy nights indoors? Or is it the end of another year? Who knows? For sure I am going through some emotional turmoil. Dialogue in my head. Questioning my decision and yes, even chest-pain.
What it is about him? I have left after almost 8 years? Am I still missing him? Am I missing his arms around me? Smelling his After-Shave? Listening to his voice? … and yes… there is also his kiss… am I missing it and the rest of it? …
But all I know is that as much as I want to be with him, as much I DON’T really want to be with him… Maybe I should just enter a new relationship? Or would it be ‘wrong’?
I had this in my Inbox this morning. Somehow it is matching to my current situation. I thought I post it on here as it is of GREAT meaning.
“Don´t be unnecessarily burdened by the past. Go on closing the chapters that you have read; there is no need to go back again and again. And never judge anything of the past from the new perspective that is arriving, because the new is new, incomparably new and the old was right in its own context, and the new is right in its own context, and they are incomparable. ”
Love affairs. Who wants them? Only the phrase brings up all kinds of emotions in me.
Love affairs can be so many things, from wonderful to awful, from exciting to frightening, from glorious to hurtful.
For some love affairs can be the most destructive thing in the world, for others the most creative thing in the world.
Have you ever thought how it would be if no woman in the world would ever go out with a married man? And of course, same visa versa. I guess the divorce rate would drop drastically, don’t you think?
Question is, what makes us want to date someone who’s ‘taken’? Who’s already committed? Someone who’s married with a family? YES, someone who IS unavailable?
Is it the adventure? Romance? The excitement of something new? The thrill of the forbidden? Maybe even boredom and YES, is it just sex?
Where will it all end? And what about the many lives that can be destroyed? And even if it goes on for sometime and you get emotionally involved, your heart is on fire and than realise there is no future? Where will it leave you?
Do you remember this song? Some say it makes them sad - moody - peaceful - relaxed - melancholic - tearful - miserable - happy … well, it is certainly a ‘mood enhancer’ either way.
Personally, it makes me smile, because it reminds of my lovely Dad.
How about you? What feelings or memories does it bring back to you?
Close to You
LYRICS:
Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
That is why all the girls in town
Follow you all around.
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Just like me (Just like me)
They long to be
Close to you.
Wahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Wahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Hahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
Lahhhhhhhhhhh, close to you.
