Good and Bad Days

Submitted Annonymous by e-mail

Although I have left my relationship last year November (2008), one would think that after over a year of single life that things become easier and if not, at least that they are at least getting easier.

“BIG SIGH”

IF only they had… what a dissapointment…

Yes of course, I have my good and bad days and yes, of course, I have more ‘good’ days, but the last two days have been all else BUT ‘good’ days.

Maybe it has to do with listening to the words of ‘old’ songs whilst driving? Is it the festive season? Cold, cozy nights indoors? Or is it the end of another year? Who knows? For sure I am going through some emotional turmoil. Dialogue in my head. Questioning my decision and yes, even chest-pain.

What it is about him? I have left after almost 8 years? Am I still missing him? Am I missing his arms around me? Smelling his After-Shave? Listening to his voice? … and yes… there is also his kiss… am I missing it and the rest of it? …

But all I know is that as much as I want to be with him, as much I DON’T really want to be with him… Maybe I should just enter a new relationship? Or would it be ‘wrong’?